Even tho I'm new here, I decided to deleted the discord server today. 

And you're probably wondering why I deleted my discord.

I realized that I cannot for the life of me spend the rest of my life talking to a bunch of stupid socially-awkward nerds who I might never meet in real life, and frankly, I don't think I want to.

Look, I don't get political very often, and I'm not a fan of the term "cisgender" (I think it's too needy for me) but the second you start referring it as a slur or use a meme from a right-wing meme account on twitter, that's where I have to draw the fucking line, and i'm saying this as someone who isn't a fan of a lotta left wing bullshit online.

I honestly don't care if that makes me come off as an "enlightened centrist" or a "fence sitter", I realized that I need people who can make my life better, not worse.

It doesn't help that there's an upcoming election in November that's literally gonna decide the fate of the country, and that makes me all the more worried, especially as someone who can get easily anxious mainly due to mental issues, to say the least.

But frankly, some of you don't seem to give a shit about that because you prefer to complain over the most trivial of bullshit that doesn't matter in the grand scheme, then I'm sorry, but I don't think we can be friends or mutuals anymore. There's plenty of content that I'm sure caters much more to your interests. 

And I'm saying all this as someone who's a bit of a nerd and who has complained about trivial shit before, but even I'm smart enough to know that there are bigger and more important things things that can affect my life, especially after the pandemic has screwed up my own relationship with my family after my own father almost died from covid. 

The pandemic is largely the reason why I created a youtube channel (and why I wanna create a new one), because I wanna do my best to work on making my dreams of making a living as an artist and content creator while still focusing on college stuff and looking for work on the side as well, especially as a way to support my own parents, AND especially now that my own sister got married last year and is living a life of her own at this point.

So if you want me to not talk about politics so much anymore? Then vote to save our country’s democracy. I don't care if you are a Democrat or Republican or libertarian or independent or whatever. 

Democracy isn't perfect, but it is the reason why you can complain on the Internet for free without getting scrutinized for it, and it's also the reason why my dad was able to recover from covid, and is probably why you or your friends or loved ones were able to recover from covid as well. And it's why I was able to get help before, and why I might try to go back again.

I just want politics to be boring again. And I'm sure there are those of you who want that, as well.

I will still create my new YouTube channel, but I wanna make sure I use it wisely (and make sure it doesn't get hacked like the last one lol). I want to entertain people but I also want to make sure they take away something from it, even if it isn't much. I’ll let you know when that happens, if I ever get to it.

And I'm not gonna be creating another public discord server anymore. And if I ever do so, It’ll most likely be a private one where I can get in touch with other creators that can help me enrich my life. Even if it's just brain rot shit, I still want that to mean something. 

TL;DR: I deleted my Discord because I can't keep interacting with socially-awkward nerds, especially when politics are involved. I don't like extreme views from either side, and I want people in my life who improve it, not make it worse. With an important election coming up, I'm more focused on real issues, especially after my dad nearly died from COVID. I want my new YouTube channel to be meaningful and won't create another public Discord server. If I do make one, it'll be private for connections that enrich my life.